For the first time, actor Liam Neeson has opened up about the 2009 death of his wife, British actress Natasha Richardson, in the new edition of Esquire Magazine on which he graces the cover. The Northern Irish star, whose veteran career is hotter than ever after the blockbuster success of 2008′s Taken, says (via The Daily Mail) he “survived by running away some. Running away to work.” But he finally had to confront his deep sense of loss: “That’s the weird thing about grief.
“You can’t prepare for it. You think you’re gonna cry and get it over with. You make those plans, but they never work.
“It hits you in the middle of the night – well, it hits me in the middle of the night.
“I’m out walking. I’m feeling quite content. And it’s like suddenly, boom. It’s like you’ve just done that in your chest.”
The actor also goes into painful detail about his mad rush to his wife’s bedside, in which he had to evade security at the hospital, finally being recognized by a nurse who allowed him into Natasha’s room. Shortly after came the sad decision to turn off the actress’ life support when doctors revealed she had no hope of recovery.
Neeson’s latest film, Unknown, hits theaters Friday.