In an upcoming in-depth interview on Piers Morgan's Life Stories, Susan Boyle opens up about her whirlwind rise to fame, which took off like wildfire upon her performance of "I Dreamed A Dream" on Britain's Got Talent in April 2009. Since then she's gone on to sell millions of albums worldwide, perform on several big name television shows, tour the U.S., and much, much more.
While she came in second behind the dance group, Diversity, Boyle says that moment left her "panicked" and she feared that her singing dreams were totally over.
"I did panic, because I'd just come second," she explained to host Piers Morgan. "I didn't realize that that would be a good thing, not a bad thing."
From there, the Scottish songbird was emotionally and physically drained, and eventually checked into London's private psychiatric facility, The Priory, for a bit of a break. But that period also took a toll on Boyle's state of mind.
"It was a bit of a scare, a scary time for me, being in a place like that," Boyle explained. "Although very therapeutic for some people, for people like me it was very scary. I thought, 'I've nobody here I know, where's my family? Where's my friends? Do I have anybody left?' I wasn't allowed to see a television, or make a phone call. I just felt as though I'd been dumped. It was probably the most frightening experience I'd been through. I felt that the dream was over."
While the 49-year-old multi-millionaire has had her fair share of strange outbursts with the paparazzi, she maintains that such behavior is merely her safety net in handling her anger.
"I have got a temper, I'm like the Incredible Hulk," she said. "I think most of the time I was tired. I've learned to control that now. It is a defense mechanism. It was my way of dealing with a whole load of tension, I was channeling it into the wrong things. I was letting fire at everybody and I really shouldn't have been doing that."
Boyle's complete interview with Piers Morgan will air on ITV1 at 9:30pm on Saturday, November 6. Boyle's second album, The Gift, arrives in the U.S. on Tuesday, November 9. (The Daily Record)